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Oh Captain! My Captain!

LOS ANGELES - JUL 29:  Robin Williams arrives at the 2013 CBS TCToday the world is mourning the loss of an artistic legend. The breadth of Robin Williams’ talent spanned the same distance that his career breaking character Mork travelled way back in 1978 when it first aired. Throughout the years he’s made us laugh and cry while fighting a courageous and difficult battle of his own unbeknownst to all those who watched. His mental illness was left “unsaid,” as it does with many, many people. Myself, I hadn’t heard he was battling depression but deep down, I wasn’t surprised. So often, those who shine so bright are hiding a dark shadow within. I can’t say that I don’t understand what he was going through. Those dark times sometimes threaten to completely consume you. Sometimes, there’s an external flicker of light that eases the pain and loneliness for a while and can offer hope that things will get better, but it’s not something that you can just get over. It takes time, support, patience, love….

 

“The loneliest people are the kindest.
The saddest people smile the brightest.
All because they do not wish to see
anyone suffer the way they do.”

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But I like monkeys….

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From Morguefile.com
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Image URI: http://mrg.bz/gVnRSS

I keep seeing this quote popping up on the net, “Every time you feel yourself being pulled into other people’s drama, repeat these words…..NOT MY CIRCUS, NOT MY MONKEYS.”  Not so much keen on the drama, but yes, monkeys are quite cool. My volleyball team is even made of monkeys…

Wait!

Does that mean I have monkeys? 

Anyway, I am still feeling a little lost, which is why this site has fallen silent. Life has been full of stories of illness, murder, robbery, identity theft, abduction, animal cruelty…just so many reasons why a moat filled with hungry crocks would be a fantastic gardening option for my home. It’s just hard to think that my buying a stranger a cuppa joe can make a difference.

But maybe it’s not about changing the world.

Maybe it’s about changing yourself. It’s been so easy to withdraw into the safety of eremitism. After all, it’s much easier to handle loss (of any kind) when you have no one to lose right? It’s also made me lose my sense of fun.

So enough of that! I’m not letting the “bastards get me down,” as a former coworker used to say all the time. Starting yesterday, I RAK’d the lady behind me in the Tim Horton’s drive through. It’s a start right?


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Seconds, Minutes, Hours

The Passage of Time

The Passage of Time (Photo credit: ToniVC)

Listening to the rain fall on the window while the wind blows through the trees, my mind is whirring with thoughts as I try to will myself to sleep. It’s not working. On my way home tonight, as I was slowing to turn down my road, a large deer stepped out in front of me. The large majestic animal surveyed my approach he decided he should continue on his way and loped into the darkness. As quickly as he appeared, he was gone. A fleeting moment in time.

It’s all so fleeting really. Life, that is. We’ve divided up our lives into units of time.  Seconds, minutes, hours, days, years…..all to categorize and organize our existence. Yet it still passes all the same. Every unique experience gone in a single breath never to return. In a sense – dead, living on only in our memories.  Just like those we’ve loved and lost. As is, I learned today, the father of a family of good friends. His passing reminds me my losses as well and my heart goes out to them. Having just heard stories of this man’s life and now in his passing, I find myself thinking that he would have been an interesting man to have known better.

We never have enough time.


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Gasping for Breath

From source: Two mammal-eating "transient...

From source: Two mammal-eating “transient” killer whales photographed off the south side of Unimak Island, eastern Aleutian Islands, Alaska. Magyar: Kardszárnyú delfin (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

As a wildlife artist, nature and wildlife are extremely important to me. I’m one of these “bleeding heart,” “tree-hugger-y” types that cannot leave a wounded or injured animal unattended. I’ve rescued or found professionals who can rehabilitate a number of animals, including a Red Necked Grebe, a Mourning Dove, a Cooper’s Hawk, a Turkey Vulture – the list goes on. Something my mom and I had very much in common. I briefly heard a part of this story yesterday in my groggy, half-sleep ear. Unfortunately, that was the last I heard of it…I also wasn’t sure what I really heard in my slumbered state. Today the story has reached a world-wide audience. It is the story of a pod of a dozen orcas or killer whales that have become stuck under the ice in a part of the Hudson’s Bay in Northern Quebec. Seeing them in this area is extremely rare at this time of year as it is mostly covered in ice. It is believed that they may have been drawn to the area during an unseasonally warm spell while they were hunting seals. As all mammals do, they need to breathe air, just like you or me, however, there is only a small hole in the ever changing arctic ice that they take turns surfacing in to breathe. This story broke only because of the advent of technology. In years past, when this would happen, it would go virtually unknown. Now, the ability to capture a story in video and post it for the world to see…bringing awareness and hopefully, aid, to these animals is at our fingertips. The virility of the amateur video posted by someone at the scene is now putting pressure on our government to take action. I’m hoping that as more people become aware of it, the increased pressure will spur them to do more. I hope that as readers, you can post this blog post or the link below to grow the collective voice that is calling for help for these animals.

The full story can be read at the Montreal Gazette.


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And the countdown begins

Happy new year

Happy new year (Photo credit: Amodiovalerio Verde)

Tonight is New Year’s Eve and the last day of my mission to perform acts of kindness throughout the month of December. The idea was that these acts would help make this month and my first Holiday Season without mom a little easier. Well, although I don’t think it this season any easier, it did serve as a good distraction. It gave me something else to focus on rather than how different this Christmas would be. While this is the last day I’ll be planning an act of kindness, it will not stop tonight. There are so many things that can be done, I’ve barely scratched the surface. I will continue to do random acts throughout the next year. I plan to dedicate more time to raising awareness about women’s cancers. One day, hopefully, removing the mystery and ignorance surrounding them and even contributing to their cures. Wildlife and nature conservation and rehabilitation are also very close to my heart…as a wildlife and nature artist, I believe our wild and natural world deserves our respect and protection. There are many, many ways that I would like to be more involved in here as well. So for today, I created a care package to send to an organization whose sole occupation is to perform daily acts of kindness to our wounded wildlife. Salthaven is a volunteer wildlife rehabilitation and educational facility. Rehabilitating injured and orphaned animals is their primary function. They also serve to educate the public about our wild world. I have collected some of the items on their wish list and included some of my art cards for their use as well.

I wish you all a very happy, healthy, kind and prosperous New Year.


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Play a Little Tune

Musica comprimida  -  Compressed Music

Musica comprimida – Compressed Music (Photo credit: Ferrari + caballos + fuerza = cerebro Humano )

The power of music is amazing. It has the ability to lift your spirits when you’re blue, to make you feel energized when you’re tired, relax you when you’re anxious and much, much more. I wake each morning with a song in my head. Sometimes, the same song plays for days, other times, it’s a new song each day. It often reflects what’s going on in my life, or my mood. I’ve had this morning melody in my mind for as long as I can remember. Earworm of a different sort I guess….speaking of which, “I’m a little teapot, short and stout…….” now let’s see you get THAT out of you’re head for a few days!

After mom passed away, I had a few songs – anthems if you will – that I would listen to (or more accurately, cry to) that seemed to offer some solace. I have a couple of good girlfriends going through some really tough times right now. Knowing music can encourage and inspire, I sent a video to each of these ladies of a song that I thought was inspiring for their situations. Maybe they’ll need a custom inspirational play list….hmmm, iTunes, here I come!


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Each Small Light….

Candlelight Vigil

Candlelight Vigil (Photo credit: KOMUnews)

It’s a mystery to me how someone could think to hurt those most innocent among us, our children. After the news of the tragic shooting in a Connecticut school, I found it difficult to think of any kindness I could offer anyone that wouldn’t seem moot. All those poor souls have been ripped away before they had a chance to shine.

I am at a loss. I have no act of kindness to share. It would seem callous to report such a menial thing when so many are mourning. It does strike me however, that acts of kindness are exactly what we all need more of. We need more connection to each other. Is this sort of news horrifying? Yes. Absolutely, but surprising? Not really. It seems our news is filled with far too many instances of death and destruction. When these things fill our minds it’s difficult for kindness to fill our hearts. Instead we are, understandably, filled with pain and mistrust. It’s my belief that what we need most now, is more kindness. We need to say those things to each other, the kind and loving things that often go unsaid. We need to do those kind things for each other that bring us together as people. Acts of kindness shouldn’t be so surprising, but they are while violent acts like the ones we’ve all heard of today are not. Instead of letting this monster drive us all further apart, let’s make a vow against him and others like him to draw closer and kinder to each other. To stand together to create a kinder, safer world.

Hug your children tonight and tell those you love, that you do.